Status: pissed off and slightly guilty conscience

God, I'm pissed off. Two pupils whom I should have taught after lunchbreak didn't show up today which means that I could have gone home at 1.15 as opposed to 3.20, but of course they didn't bother telling me about it. In the end, I don't care if they want to take advantage of the opportunity they're given or not, but they could at least be respectful and let me know. Graaaaaaaaaaa!

Apart from that, I also feel a bit guilty about something I don't really have reason to feel guilty about. After two months of trying, Sandra and I have finally given up on asking Cecilia out. She didn't go out with us often, anyway, and when she did, we didn't have the impression that she felt comfortable. More often she had excuses not to come which might have been true, but let us doubt her interest in us, as well. I'm tired is just not a particularly good reason not to go out on a Saturday night. Anyway, she doesn't take initiative on asking us to do something with her, but she seemingly prefers to ask total strangers to go to Cardiff with her, for example, without asking us if we wanted to go. When asked what she was up to lately, she told us about it without hesitating. Then, she told us about a meeting at a church where a lot of international people were, had coffee and got to know each other. Once again, she didn't bother asking us. So, taking all that into account, we stopped trying, as well, and went to see James Bond, yesterday, without her. Although, come to think of it, I told her that we wanted to go and asked if she wanted to come last week. I told her to get back to me if she wanted to. She didn't and I didn't remind her of it, because firstly, she didn't look like she was keen on Bond when I told her and secondly, I didn't want her to make up rubbish excuses. So, she knew about it, but didn't come. However, one of the other teachers asked us if we went to see Quantum of Solace and how it was, and when Sandra and I answered, Cecilia looked a bit disappointed and uncomfortable. Maybe that woke her up. If she is interested in doing stuff with us, she should have realised now that it's up to her now, because I've wasted enough money on suggestions in text messages that were put down by her. Another explanation might be that she simply doesn't like us. Fair enough, I suppose. If it was true, at least I wouldn't have to worry about it anymore.
If anyone understands all of the above, congratulations. Sorry for writing gibberish.